It's just totally not me... not me at all. i feel tat i have just fallen into a deep and big hole, can someone just help me get out.. everything is just totally out of place.. i have to find the way to get everything back to its original place. can someone just help me? i'm really tired and pissed off..






I'm here always.. hoping history will not repeat itself.. unless....

hahas.. todae was a big day.. it was our first match basketball tournament in 2006.. i believe tis is my last year too ba.. todae i tink my teammates did well onli until the last few minutes, they panic and the scores get further.. and i find tat they really improve alot. hahas.. so happie for them.. really lohs.. todae we against chung cheng high.. beginning the scores will still quite close. so excited sia.. next match is duman high. another die die match. hahas... hope lanest can do well ba.. =) and i believe u guys can.!

at last the sun is out.. but when its out, so damn hot and i'm having my bball training todae la.. hahas.. hot lik shit..den have match with C boys. hais. play so badly.. i didn't defend well.. attack is oso not much better. first match jiu on tues le.. waited for this day for a long time but when its just ard the corner, i dunno y but jus feel i'm not playing well in anything. chung cheng is our first.. dunno whether they are good not.. but just hope lanest could win a match.. tat's enough.. at least i'm able to feel the happiness with my teammates. anyway oso my last year.. and with tis ku ku standard, i doubt i could continue in poly.

so many things is happening. and i find tat i changing to a person whom myself dunno too. it's jus isn't me at all.. sorry if i had make any of u unhappie or upset with me. i sincerely apologise.!

hmmm.. time flies.. now i'm back in school studying and is already the second week. So many things had happened. Let me say abt school first, Mr Lai become our form teacher. and some of the subjects teacher had changed- Mr Chew and Mrs Heng. On the first week of sch,i had my dance practise on the first day of school. i din really enjoy or shld i say i wasn't in the good mood. My dance instructor had change all of a sudden. Nobody had expected this to happened. Not even the teacher-in-charge. She expected everything to go well. Maybe like what she say some things we are unable to decide. So we had another new dance intructor. Of course i won't feel good, definitely not. I recalled those words that he had spoken to me the last time. That was also the first time he had talk to me for so long. It could just be the 15mintues but all his words were so meaningful. He told me that he expected more from me but he don't need me to become a real dancer in the outside world but just want me to put in my effort in every dance. I find that i have totally disappoint him. He might scold me often but i know he want the best out of me. He had taught me for 3years and without even any notice, he's gone. What could i do, i had try to ask teacher to talk to the heads but they still did not change their answer. [ bai lao shi, dui bu qi. wo ling ni shi wang le. ]


On friday, my school was having the CCA display. Before that, i had my basketball training. But the rain was like big, small, big, small. So unpredictable. This year CCA display, i din really go pull the sec 1. The lower secs are the one pulling. Must let them gain experience mahs. hahas.. Oh ya. laoda's bro is cute. His actions are lik his sister. Look so ku ku. especiallly when they smile. =)


Yesterday went to eat with lanest and laoda's bro after school den went back for my dance. Of course i still feel unhappy and alot of things but i just had only one choice and is to listen to the new instructor and continue with the dance. This could be the last dance in my secondary life. i wants to make it to the best but i could not. Its not the instructor fault. It's mine. i just could not adapt to this new teacher's way of teaching. Her dance steps are also alittle weird but what could i do.